Many Japanese students often seem to dislike to volunteer in classes. However they don't actually dislike but they hesitate to do. It is one of the Japanese old customs which remains even today.Some Japanese usually don't want to attract attention to themselves among others as they think it is a kind of polite ways to not show off. It is a significant belief for some of them. However, sometimes Americans feel impatient and annoyed when they see a Japanese who looks around at other and just smile until after a few minutes one of the others speaks up what they want to do. That kind of behavior of keeping silence is common for Japanese, but I realized that it is not so polite in America.
Although I say such things, I sometimes hesitate to speak out among the other Japanese students as well. I am really sensitive about what the others will think when I raise my hand and say, "I will do it". It is so difficult that I cannot stop thinking about it, but chance always comes suddenly and I have to catch what I truly want to do, otherwise my life here will lose its meaning. I had one experience here, during these 2 month, and it really challenged me. Now I belong to the Ensemble class, and I enjoy singing there. This is an extra class students who are fond of music take. Probably belonging in this class is the first challenging for me at MFWI.
One day the chance to speak up came. The teacher said that she needed a soloist for one of the songs we'd sing. I usually enjoy singing in front of many people, but I hesitated to raise my hand. She needs only one person, and it meant that I have to attract attention by raising the hand. As other students got annoyed, I was really worried about whether I could stay still composed or not. If they felt this important job wasn't for them, could I still stay in this class? I was thinking of such silly things(of course it was silly), but my brain stop thinking when I heard the teacher's voice, "Anyone can do it!!" I love singing, and I came here to challenge myself about many things. I think this is one of many things. I can be "anyone" as same as the other students. At last (though this big thing was decided in a few minutes) I did raise my hand and say "I will do it!".
I like "Japaneseness" in some ways, and I always want to be a modest person as a Japanese. I think it is a kind of important thing when we live in the society in any countries, because being modest shows a respectful feeling to others. Though it often works well as a really good habit, sometimes people not only get annoyed, but also we will lose chance to improve ourselves or to enjoy our life. You really have to be careful about those nice things before we care about what other think. Therefore, you should be active, and raise the hand up to make our life better. Volunteer and speaking out will improve you more and more.
Although I say such things, I sometimes hesitate to speak out among the other Japanese students as well. I am really sensitive about what the others will think when I raise my hand and say, "I will do it". It is so difficult that I cannot stop thinking about it, but chance always comes suddenly and I have to catch what I truly want to do, otherwise my life here will lose its meaning. I had one experience here, during these 2 month, and it really challenged me. Now I belong to the Ensemble class, and I enjoy singing there. This is an extra class students who are fond of music take. Probably belonging in this class is the first challenging for me at MFWI.
One day the chance to speak up came. The teacher said that she needed a soloist for one of the songs we'd sing. I usually enjoy singing in front of many people, but I hesitated to raise my hand. She needs only one person, and it meant that I have to attract attention by raising the hand. As other students got annoyed, I was really worried about whether I could stay still composed or not. If they felt this important job wasn't for them, could I still stay in this class? I was thinking of such silly things(of course it was silly), but my brain stop thinking when I heard the teacher's voice, "Anyone can do it!!" I love singing, and I came here to challenge myself about many things. I think this is one of many things. I can be "anyone" as same as the other students. At last (though this big thing was decided in a few minutes) I did raise my hand and say "I will do it!".
I like "Japaneseness" in some ways, and I always want to be a modest person as a Japanese. I think it is a kind of important thing when we live in the society in any countries, because being modest shows a respectful feeling to others. Though it often works well as a really good habit, sometimes people not only get annoyed, but also we will lose chance to improve ourselves or to enjoy our life. You really have to be careful about those nice things before we care about what other think. Therefore, you should be active, and raise the hand up to make our life better. Volunteer and speaking out will improve you more and more.
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